my wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to. . . [Monday April 24th, 2006 6:54pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | NEW rascle flatts ] he says he loves me. . . everything has changed so drastically in my life, all in just eight months. im not at all who i use to be. my view of life has changed, my view&&opinions of everything have been twisted&resulting, im just not the same person . . . sometimes i dont like it, though ive learned somuch. ive fallen in love&& nothing in the whole entire world has the ability to make you so happy, yet hurt you so much as lovecan, or what we think is true love. beep beep

I don't know to follow my heart, or just live in hell. [Monday August 1st, 2005 11:47am] We're holding hands. We're at the beach. We're throwing sand. As the night just goes on all around us,I can't believe It's over. Im sitting under falling stars. Do you miss me where you are. Im making plans to be with you,somehow. The nights are getting warmer again,I let you go,I let you in. Everything you're saying sounds right tonight. The waves are crashing on and on.Im holding tight so I can feel alive. What would you say if i asked you not to go. To forget everyone, forget everything, and start over with me. Would you take my hand, and never let me go? Promise me you'll never let me go. And now the stars are out tonight, but neither are we to look up at them. Why does your love feel like good-bye? These memories can't replace these wishes i wished and dreams i dreamed. Take this broken heart and make it right. It's weird how i didn't know you, but there was something about you that i can't stop missing.When i left there, when i left you, i felt like i was leaving everything i knew.I felt like that was where i belonged,with you.You took my hand, but i had to pull away because i knew i would never see you again.I wanted to hold you as you were squeezing me safe and tight under the night sky.It was perfect, but nothing ever lasts.You didn't know me, you just accepted me for who i was, you adored me for just being with you.That was what i needed. I feel like i need to move away from this place,forever. There's something pulling at my heart that won't let me rest saying i need to start over.I need to move on.I've thought about it before. .but it's never been to the point where i was ready to pack up and leave like it is now.Me and my mom we're on our way back from the beach in South Carolina and she said what would you do if we moved out of state,i just said i don't know.She said you wouldn't miss everything. .i said yeah,not really, i would get over it.That's the truth.But now im just dying to leave and forget everything here.Leave it all here, and jut go away.I have the chance to, i just have to really follow through and follow my heart i guess.I just feel like it's best if i leave.Like that's the only way my heart will rest. beep beep

I don't want to worry anymore. [Saturday July 23rd, 2005 11:42am] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | Kelly Clarkson ..::beautiful disaster::.. ] Small, simple, safe-price. .rise and wake and carry me away with all of my regrets. Can't you see my hands are tied,im on my knees. . .i have given up. beep beep

Take my hand and never let it go. [Monday July 18th, 2005 9:09pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | New Found Glory ] Tell all my friends Im dead, it won't be long before you forget my name. beep beep

WhenEverythingsmeant tobebroken. .i just dont think that you'd understand. [Sunday July 10th, 2005 3:59pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | the fan, spinning too faSt ] So sometimes like people can be really immature, yeah! Freakin' toughin' up and stop being a 2 year old. I've been thinking about what or where I want my life to be in ten years.I have a pretty good idea of it too. .NonsEnse. beep beep

anYthinGisbetter thanyoumakingmeFeel LaMe. . . [Thursday July 7th, 2005 12:44am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | something corporate ] Ive had enough of this,please just forget my name. . . I am so sorry for all of my mistakes. Everything im doing doesnt make sense anymore.i dont know what im living for.i dont know why im doing the things i do.this is the most frustrating feeling ever.i know i have to get away from lakeland.i keep skrewing up.i dont know what to do.i want someone to SAVE me.i want to be passionate about something. .i want to love something and live for something.i want what i do to make sense.i cant sleep at night anymore because i worry about everything so much.my heart hurts too Now I know what it feels like to bite your tongue. . . to always be afraid of everything I wanted to say. i want to be "fiXed" i want "ahhhhhhhhhh"tojust. . . sReaMouTLOud!!!! beep beep

i tHink i wAs just conFused In wHat i founD plEasing. . . [Tuesday July 5th, 2005 2:21am] [ mood | grateful ] [ music | Blindside ] im really happy for my friend..i cant name her because she would be pissed..but im so glad shes happy.she met this guy and he is so sweet and awesome to her and that is what she TRUELY deserves.he treats her right and that makes me so happy to see that and to see her so happy.i wasnt sure if she even knew how a guy was really suppose to treat her but now i know she does.i hope everything for them really works out because i think he is just what she needs in her life right now.it was awesome i was talking to her on the phone earlier and she was saying its so awesome how we never get mad at eachother because we can talk about anything and everything..and then she mentioned a situation that happened last month that she was so scarred to tell me about because she thought what she had done would hurt me so much it would cost her our friendship.she even said herself if i had done to her what she did to me she wouldnt of known what she would have done. . and what she did to me. .well it did hurt me and was wrong towards me..but i just blew it off because it wasnt that important to me as our friendship.and what happened did happen for the best i can now say.i dont even know where all this came from. .but i hope you read it ****** ******* *******!!!i love you to death and you know it and i am here for you through everything! beep beep

itsAlriGht. .iTsokAy [Thursday June 30th, 2005 11:00pm] [ mood | impressed ] [ music | sKyE sw33tnam ] . .one day at a time. . .i think im gonna make it. . beep beep

iwakeUPandtearDROPStheyfalldownlikeRAIN. . . [Tuesday June 21st, 2005 10:47pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | siLenCe ] dReamiNg olD dReams. . wiShinG oLd wisHeS. . . tHaty0uw0uLdbEbaCkaGaiN. beep beep

kiSSedMEontheFOrheaD..youCarEd [Sunday June 19th, 2005 4:16pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | THURSDAY ] everytime i run away.just know now that i sTiLL have memories. i wish i had now what i needed to be on my own. . i fEEl so defeated. i cant beleive i called him again.a gave my heart to him. . yeaH the one that got away.wow i really do miss him.i miss the way when i would cry while we were on the phone or i was feeling down. .the way you would say those couple of words to me that made me feel so incredable.you would just say them so sweetly "i just want to hold you" i miss those words so much.i miss the way i beleived them so much and how i beleived you meant them.i miss being held by him.its weird that i still miss all of it after the time that has gone by.i want him back,i feel like he would make me al better.he had my attention. .he has it all the while since the last day i saw him.your ways were affection.show me your remembering the times we spent together. -pinMywingsdoWn- ps.new s/n. . smokingmirrors beep beep

imtangledupinyou.toosoon?dontstophere. [Tuesday May 24th, 2005 3:47pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | blindside ] i dont want to fall to peices. i just want to sit and stare at you. idontwanttotalkaboutit. i dont want a conversation. i just want to cry infront of you. idontwanttotalkaboutit. i want to know what you want who you are what you feel you make a first impression im scared to say your always on my mind. i dont want the world to see me i dont think that they would understand. eventhe stars refusetoshine.wheneverythingsmeanttobe broken. whattodo beep beep

everythingwasexactly howitseemed [Monday May 23rd, 2005 12:23am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | creaky doors ] wow the summer is here.i couldnt wait and now its here.freshman year is over and gone.its weird i want to go back for some reason.i dont want to move on.this whole year was awesome.great.spectacular..even though it was like a crazy roller coaster out of control most of the time.but im going to miss it like hell.i have learned so much about myself and just life and everything. half days are funn. thursday me and hannah left school before it even started..went to eat breakfast..and bought balloons like little kids and played around.we jumped the peoples fence behind my house and jumped in their pool..for about .5 seconds before we relized they were home and jumped back over the fence..clearing it,landing on our towels in the mudd..lol..pretending we were just casually tanning the whole time .they must think im nutts.it was great.then everybody picked us up and met everybody else up at chilies.then swam..for real.shopping at the mall with ashley hannah and kaelyn.then CDBs yummy! friday we went swimming again with the whole shibang..we tanned and had a great time. ifyoufindyourselfhereonmysideoftown. ipraythatyoucometomydoor.andtalktomelikeyoudontknowwhatweeverfaughtabout. idont remember anymore. beep beep

[Monday May 16th, 2005 3:55pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | sleeping at last ] NEW JOURNAL UP AND RUNNING! i love brittney mims ♥♥ beep beep

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